
We see her fight between ambition and addiction and how, inevitably, her disease threatens everything she worked so hard to achieve. It continues to New York, where we follow Marnell’s amphetamine-fueled rise from intern to editor through the beauty departments of NYLON, Teen Vogue, Glamour, and Lucky.

It begins at a posh New England prep school-and with a prescription for the Attention Deficit Disorder medication Ritalin. This is a tale of self-loathing, self-sabotage, and yes, self-tanner.

She was also a “doctor shopper” who manipulated Upper East Side psychiatrists for pills, pills, and more pills a lonely bulimic who spent hundreds of dollars a week on binge foods a promiscuous party girl who danced barefoot on banquets a weepy and hallucination-prone insomniac who would take anything- anything-to sleep. From the New York Times bestselling author and former beauty editor Cat Marnell, a “vivid, maddening, heartbreaking, very funny, chaotic” ( The New York Times) memoir of prescription drug addiction and self-sabotage, set in the glamorous world of fashion magazines and downtown nightclubs.Īt twenty-six, Cat Marnell was an associate beauty editor at Lucky, one of the top fashion magazines in America-and that’s all most people knew about her.
